My heart is pierced by cupid
Feb. 29th, 2020 01:19 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
giornata_gloriosaGiorno had curled up in a large chair, tucked into a mostly hidden corner of the library, a large tome nestled on his lap, though he wasn't reading the pages, he wasn't even really looking at the book.
His mind was lost to thoughts of the school dance... and one particular person. Even now he could feel a fluttering feeling in his belly when he thought of them dancing together. And the feeling escalated as he remembered his personal revelation, that he trusted Gongenzaka.
Up until now trust had been an exchange to him: you did something worthy of trust, and people trusted you. He'd always viewed it the same way back, he trusted those who did things worthy of that trust. Jonathan and Jolyne had offered him views into his past, especially without pressing him for information, had earned the both of them trust.
It wasn't quite so with Gongenzaka, getting him to get a coat in the cold, and sitting and studying with him was hardly acts of great trust. But the trust had built, and he hadn't even realized it, until the dance. It wasn't just that he didn't have to be guarded around the other... he felt safe being defenseless, letting his mind drift with the other right there.
He actually felt more comfortable letting his thoughts drift around the other, than he even did on his own. And he felt more free to speak his mind than he did around most, but more than that, he didn't feel half so much the concern of what reaction his words would cause.
He finally focused on the book in his lap, looking over the chapter he'd planned to read, before he'd gotten lost in thought.
The thought hit him, all at once and rather stunningly- he was falling in love.
Or... at least that was what he could guess these feelings were. The self help books he'd tucked into his room so he could read them on his own certainly didn't put friends in a light that felt like this. He had wanted to improve his interpersonal skills, with having a family and friends, it seemed important. Now he was thinking he should start reading the parts about love... and other deeper relationships.
If he wasn't wrong... he wanted to find a way to tell Gongenzaka, a way that could be easily answered, without putting pressure on things. He'd read enough about the idea of unhealthy friendships, people feeling obligated to follow an idea they were against, to not upset someone, and while he didn't think the other was so weak willed, he didn't want to put his friend in such a position.
Looking back down at the book he smiled a little, the section title had misled him from what he thought it would contain, but this... may be more what he needed. He would have to do some research, but that was not hard, in fact he might even be able to do so sitting their library trips. No... that was a little too much of a risk... As amusing as it might be to get away with.
His mind was lost to thoughts of the school dance... and one particular person. Even now he could feel a fluttering feeling in his belly when he thought of them dancing together. And the feeling escalated as he remembered his personal revelation, that he trusted Gongenzaka.
Up until now trust had been an exchange to him: you did something worthy of trust, and people trusted you. He'd always viewed it the same way back, he trusted those who did things worthy of that trust. Jonathan and Jolyne had offered him views into his past, especially without pressing him for information, had earned the both of them trust.
It wasn't quite so with Gongenzaka, getting him to get a coat in the cold, and sitting and studying with him was hardly acts of great trust. But the trust had built, and he hadn't even realized it, until the dance. It wasn't just that he didn't have to be guarded around the other... he felt safe being defenseless, letting his mind drift with the other right there.
He actually felt more comfortable letting his thoughts drift around the other, than he even did on his own. And he felt more free to speak his mind than he did around most, but more than that, he didn't feel half so much the concern of what reaction his words would cause.
He finally focused on the book in his lap, looking over the chapter he'd planned to read, before he'd gotten lost in thought.
The Language of Flowers
The art of sending a message to the recipient in the form of a bouquet of flowers. The message may be as simple as a 'thank you' or as complex as 'I find you attractive and want to court you'. These flowers don't only offer sweet messages though, sometimes they are rejections or even declarations of war. Below are listed some such flowers and their meanings.
Aster- Symbol of Love, Daintiness
The thought hit him, all at once and rather stunningly- he was falling in love.
Or... at least that was what he could guess these feelings were. The self help books he'd tucked into his room so he could read them on his own certainly didn't put friends in a light that felt like this. He had wanted to improve his interpersonal skills, with having a family and friends, it seemed important. Now he was thinking he should start reading the parts about love... and other deeper relationships.
If he wasn't wrong... he wanted to find a way to tell Gongenzaka, a way that could be easily answered, without putting pressure on things. He'd read enough about the idea of unhealthy friendships, people feeling obligated to follow an idea they were against, to not upset someone, and while he didn't think the other was so weak willed, he didn't want to put his friend in such a position.
Looking back down at the book he smiled a little, the section title had misled him from what he thought it would contain, but this... may be more what he needed. He would have to do some research, but that was not hard, in fact he might even be able to do so sitting their library trips. No... that was a little too much of a risk... As amusing as it might be to get away with.
